This was the first time in a looooong time that I struggled this big. As I'm crying over a meal. A meal I didn't want to eat at all. I knew I did it in the wrong order. I showered too late. And yet I felt pretty good after it. but all the sudden I saw my reflection. and that was not what my eating-disordered mind wanted to see.

Hi all, it’s weird sitting at my own desk in my own room writing this blog, I never thought I would be ever ready to get where I am today. But I made it a long way and I will take you with me for the last 2 months. I made some drastic measures in the last months, choices that will determine my being a lot. I’m not in a treatment facility anymore, which to be honest is a big struggle. I would lie if I said that it was an easy road. It’s not. I went to live on my own again, have a job and a car. And…

I haven't shared in a while (almost 2 years) and I thought it was about time that I started to share some stuff that happened in the last 2 years. Cause damn, a lot happened in these 2 years! Some of you saw partial stuff online with me, and some of you don't know a clue, but I think I'm ready to share a bit of my story.

Zo, dat was er weer eentje, weer een jaartje voorbij. En hij ging voor mijn gevoel net zo snel als andere jaren. Toch was dit jaar een bijzonder jaar waarin er zoveel gebeurd is waar ik elk jaar toch even bij stil sta.