• Intentions,  Personal,  Thoughts & Tips

    Navigate left? Or right?

    Sometimes all you need is a different perspective to your daily life things. I am so happy that i have a therapeutic team that can show me how insane my thought patterns sometimes are on a daily basis. And as soon I say them out loud to my therapist, it dawns to me how insane it actually is. But I keep believing my thoughts, they make sense in a way.

  • Intentions,  Personal

    Recovery is a daily choice..

    It's hard to sit down and write at the moment. Cause the one moment I'm the happiest girl in the world, other moment's I don't see the point anymore. I'm almost 16 months without behaviors yet I feel I should be so much more stable, I should have my life in order, maybe even I should be healed.

  • Intentions,  Personal

    New year, same struggles

    When I hit my year milestone, I thought that most struggles would be gone. When I survived the holidays, I thought the struggles would be less. Every first felt like the struggles would get less, yet here I am sitting with the same struggles.

  • Intentions,  Personal

    So much to keep going

    I was sitting in the Uber back home after an EDA meeting this evening. And I realized that a year ago nothing seemed enough to keep going. I lost all the life I had in me. there was this one percent that kept me going. As my former therapist always said; 'Keep holding on to that one percent'. And that's what I did.